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home, again .. everyday  .. it’s a loop that never stops .. i feel trapped in the same mood .. time is passing .. it’s not a cycle .. but nothing new happens .. and i know i’m loosing time .. last night had a reminder .. some girl hits  the car i was in .. a small accident .. that was new .. and also a trigger .. well no one got hurt ..

as i said, i’m home again .. just entered .. is empty .. outside is cold .. inside is hot .. i wanted to open the window .. but i’m to lazy to do that .. my parrots were waiting .. they were hungry .. i gave them some food .. they seem ok for now .. at least they were waiting for me .. yeah .. my parrots and I ..

i’ve turned the tv ok .. got the laptop in the middle of the bed and start thinking … and typing .. some people are dancing on tv .. a contest or something .. they are “gathering” funds for .. mostly for them (at least this is my oppinion) .. who cares … the tv is on just for the noise it makes ..

hmm .. i finaly got it .. no one is reading my blog .. well i guess this is what i wanted .. maybe i’m writing just for you .. or just for me alone .. and we are both visiting these pages whenever we remember .. and usually is nothing new

i have to do something, i don’t feel ok with what is happening to me .. i find myself thinking of the future, on what it’s going to happen .. but those are just dreams .. i’m wasting my life dreaming .. hehe, i’m a dreamer babe .. yes, i did .. i tried .. and failed .. yea, failed better .. i’m good at failing .. i don’t know .. i always say the wrong thing .. or the right thing to late .. but i still dare to dream

yes u do, i miss you .. i’m happy when we talk .. thaw sometimes i cant find the words .. and there comes silence .. and then one of us have to leave .. it’s awkward when that happens .. but i’ve promised myself to try .. and fail .. i get mad when i know that others are closer to you and i wish that  i could be one of them .. but i’m not .. and probably i never will be

a song started in background .. this is what tv is for .. nice song, i’ll post it in the end

so .. i know .. clear all and start from the beginning .. i know .. someday

as i said, i’m home again .. is empty .. outside is cold .. inside is not worm .. i’m typing thinking of posting this or not .. but it’s easy for me to write .. i’ll get lost if i’d try to say this to u ..

btw .. the song ..